"i've been out of my head the whole time you've been talking. did i miss anything important?"

i haven't written in a while. almost like i have nothing to say, but that isn't it. really, it's that the words are coming in a little harder than usual. what i mean to say is, that i have so much to say i guess, that it's hard to really articulate the things i want to say.
does that make sense? kinda. anyway, i've been kind of thinking about a lot of stuff, like writing and the people that come from that, or that get born from those seeds. it's kind of strange, in ways, but that's really what swirls on in my head. i kind of go in these funks and things kind of just build up and up, and they kind of just sit there and wait for me to get my ass in gear and spin them out. i kind of keep them locked up, because i'm afraid i guess. maybe it's that i'm afraid of what will happen to them when i let them run out and about in the world, you know, or that they might not be exactly what i had hoped or wanted them to be, but that's not really fair, is it?
anyway, so i have this sort of pile of stuff that i need to get out and i guess i'm going to soon, i just need to kind of sit and talk with them for a while before i can tell their stories. anyway, it's gonna be work, and i'm not averse to that, but i'm not exactly moving very quickly.

besides that:

i was driving today and decided that 'dolphin-people' can't drive for shit. you know those people that have that stupid dolphin thingy hanging from their rear-view mirror? those people. they can't fuckin drive. it's like they're totally clueless. they drive too slow, they switch lanes without signaling most of the time, and they even look totally clueless. the one i was behind today came to a dead stop in rush-hour traffic to let some other clueless moron into traffic. how stupid can you be?! she totally could have caused an accident if i wasn't such an expert driver and on top of my driving game at all times. why can't people drive like me?

i need a hummer and a bag of bricks. then i'd be king of the road.